I Graduated!

Graduating from the Barbara Brennan School of Healing has been one of the biggest achievements in my life. Shortly after graduation I wrote this blog that explains my experience as a BBSH student.

June, 2007
Greetings,

I just came back from one of the most rewarding trips in my life. This time I was not unicycling over the Chinese Wall, or unicycling across Europe. This trip was into my inner space... deep into my being. Five years ago I decided to enroll into the Barbara Brennan School of Healing.

Last Sunday was my graduation, where I officially became a "Brennan Healing Science Practitioner" [http://www.bhspa-usa.org]. That was one of the happiest days of my life (so far).

I was not an easy way. I had to travel to Miami (FL) over 20 times, receive over 100 healing sessions, face my biggest fears, cry my deepest sadness and process my emotions. I had to learn how to fully love myself before I could fully love other people. I had to work night and weekends (besides my full time job) in order to pay for the trips... and I had to take some loans. I had never put so much energy in something... but it was worth it!

I had a hard time keeping up with the curriculum. Even though I have a longing to heal people, it was difficult for me to meet some of the evaluation criteria that the school has. I have the tendency to numb out on difficult situations. The teacher would put pressure on the students and expect the energy to stay on the body. That's a big challenge for me.

On my first years the teachers met with me and told me that I had to stay more present during the evaluation periods. The next year I had to take a year off because of financial reasons and because I didn't had enough "vacation" days at work. During the Second (third) years I received two letters from the dean telling me that I had to get stronger or I was not going to make it to the 3rd year. In the very last minute I managed to make it. During my third year, I received two more letters telling me that I wasn't going to make it into the 4rth year. During the fourth year I received a letter saying that I was most likely not going to graduate. That was the most powerful letter because half way through the year I was not mastering some basic skills that I was supposed to be able to do the previous year. On a very short time I managed to catch up and learn all the additional skills that I needed to learn in order to graduate. I am glad they made it so difficult for me because they forced me to learn even more. I am glad I made it.

I feel stronger that ever. And more confident. I am aware that life is going to keep sending me obstacles (learning experiences), but am more prepared to face them without allowing them to hurt my self-esteem because I had the opportunity to meet and accept (and love) my darkest areas.

The graduation ceremony was a beautiful experience. As we walked into the room they played graduation music that reminded us the importance of the event. We came through a tunnel where our teachers were welcoming us and cheering us up. I remembered all the hard work that I had to do with each one of them. Then we walked around the room and saw some of our friends who came to see us. All the graduation speeches were amazing, specially the one by Rodolfo, who was the student speaker and my roommate for the last 3 years.

At night we had a graduation dinner that ended up with a dance. I danced so much that I was unable to move. I struggled to stand up and walk into the dance floor in order to keep dancing. It felt good to move my body and circulate all the hype that I had inside.

As I was very excited, I found a copy of the new school catalog and I saw that there were 3 pictures of me in it.

Very soon, am going to set up my healing practice. I have a lot of interesting ideas. In the meanwhile, I have been busy with a lot of interesting projects at my regular job.

I will keep you posted.

Love,

Javier